It seemed as if I was on the right path, but I am weak when it comes to temptation. What kind of temptation? Well. Alcohol, for one. Sexual, for another. I was doing just fine without either. A clean and abstinent me. What the hell happened. Some argue that it’s okay to explore and to be pleasure seekers, because hey, we’re still young. However, my gut is telling me that this mentality will bite me in the ass later down the line. It can’t be that easy. Can it? Also, it’s a given that girls aren’t allowed to have the same sexual drive as boys do. Society won’t accept it. I think it’s become more socially acceptable for a girl to be the aggressive one, & casual sex seems like the norm within this generation, but girls will never get high fives for having a high count/tally marks/notches on their bedpost/etc.
I know, I know, girls control the situation, and we’re supposed to be classy and I agree, almost. I’m torn. Part of me wants to be the good girl, and the other part, doesn’t. It’s a toss up. Why aren’t girls allowed to have fun, again? I don’t feel guilty about how I behave, but I feel like I have to. So does this mean that I actually feel guilty, or am I feeling guilty because I feel like I should?
xx
Jysko
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